4.11.2009

Life Choices

Hi everyone. I apoligize for not being on the blogging scene for a while, but I figure you all have your own lives to pay attention too, as do I, and so I've taken a bit of a timeout to take care of my personal business. I've been thinking a lot about my future. Should I go out into the world and have adventures of my own, or should I stick around here like a pot of soup and simmer a while longer until I'm ready to serve (excuse the food metaphore)? College or no college? Animator? Puppeteer? Teacher? Performer on stage? Voice Actor? I would love love love to have any of these careers, but which am I best suited for? Or should I do a little bit of everything and therefore suffer quality of work for lack of focus? How much time should I set aside for movie watching (which I love to do), or Photoshop study (which I'm very good at), or doodling in my notebook (I love this also), or brainstorming for Leslie and Kyle (will this venture ever amount to anything other than small-time fame?)...

I am, in short, taking myself seriously. I know that I am young and talented and I have my whole life ahead of me. And I also know that I'm not the only one who has this kind of angst, for that I am grateful because it means I am not alone. I just wish that someone could just send me a letter telling me exactly what I should do with my life. But then that would take all the fun out of figuring it out for myself, wouldn't it? Such an uncooperative double-standard. I want direction, but I want it my way.

I wonder if any of this anxiety is coming from the book I'm reading, "What Should I Do With My Life"? Silly question I guess. On the one hand I am inspired by the stories told from people who have stumbled through life to finally find what they always wanted to do in the first place.  On the other hand, it's leading me to question my way of living; I am homeschooled, and so I have much free time to pursue my interests and passions, but I also feel I lack the discipline one gains from going to school every day and handing in projects and assignments every so often. Then again, all coins have 2 sides to them, don't they? Yin and Yang, pros and cons. I suppose I should consider myself pretty lucky.

If any of you readers have any advice or common thoughts, please share with me. It would be nice to know that there are people out there who feel the way I do about their future.

3 comments:

Rainy said...

What ever you do, it'll be good, as long as you work hard.

"And will you succeed? Yes indeed, yes indeed! Ninety-eight and three-quarters percent guaranteed!"

Don't you just love Dr. Seuss?

Annette Levy said...

Oh Rainy. Who doesn't love the Dr.? I remember reading "Oh The Places You'll Go" aloud to my class back in grade school. I went through kindergarten, 1st, and 2nd grade, and then switched to homeschooling.

Thanks a lot. ^.^

Nick James said...

Take it from me, don't feel rushed to do anything. I went through two years of college and left to pursue my acting dreams. Please, focus on a fulfilled life--not a focused one. We can focus ourselves on the easy route, but true happiness lie in what the heart keeps in view!