I am, in short, taking myself seriously. I know that I am young and talented and I have my whole life ahead of me. And I also know that I'm not the only one who has this kind of angst, for that I am grateful because it means I am not alone. I just wish that someone could just send me a letter telling me exactly what I should do with my life. But then that would take all the fun out of figuring it out for myself, wouldn't it? Such an uncooperative double-standard. I want direction, but I want it my way.
I wonder if any of this anxiety is coming from the book I'm reading, "What Should I Do With My Life"? Silly question I guess. On the one hand I am inspired by the stories told from people who have stumbled through life to finally find what they always wanted to do in the first place. On the other hand, it's leading me to question my way of living; I am homeschooled, and so I have much free time to pursue my interests and passions, but I also feel I lack the discipline one gains from going to school every day and handing in projects and assignments every so often. Then again, all coins have 2 sides to them, don't they? Yin and Yang, pros and cons. I suppose I should consider myself pretty lucky.
If any of you readers have any advice or common thoughts, please share with me. It would be nice to know that there are people out there who feel the way I do about their future.